Too much ambition, too little happiness

Too much ambition, too little happiness 

Never satisfied with where I am, only where I am headed in the emptiness. 

But then I never arrive, I never quite reach there in the end.

It feels like every road ends up being a bend. 

Ah I get it, I am not even headed anywhere.

After 3 bends to the right, I am headed right back here. 

But I never enjoy it where it’s calm for too long. Seems like continuous movement is where is I belong.

Stress is not happening to me in the way I imagined, I created all this lest I feel alone and abandoned. 

So these are not dreams that I am actually pursuing, it is the fear of nothing important ensuing.

There was nothing noble in the journey to begin with, there was only the avoidance of discomfort within us. 

- Sameer (on a Tuesday)